abnormalizes | Seasons: IC Contact/Continuations

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[There's a short stretch of silence in response, then - broken only by a shaky breath and the sound of him having to put his phone down for a moment.
Just a moment.

But, eventually -]

Is there anyone here you feel that for, but more strongly?
Perhaps they would be a good example for what I want to explain to you.

[Because, yeah, he knows there has to be someone. He's just A Friend:tm: - she has several lovers, let alone her actual, full-on relationships.]

Stronger than that? All of my partners, and my close friends, are about that level... it's hard for me to rank them.

[She's allowed to care intensely about her Friends, isn't she? Since she's someone who isn't good at distinguishing romantic love in the first place.]

You have no one above all others, then.
Perhaps I truly do feel things too strongly.

[That's followed by another pause, though he breaks it by letting out a little hum of thought.]

... Alright, then. I suppose I'll give you a more classical description -
Worship, if you must have a way to think of it, is the most intense form of devotion one could choose.

The easiest example I can think of, frankly, would be that of nuns. Nuns, when they join their sisterhood, give up everything in order to better serve and worship God and Christ -
Some even going so far as to be something of a "wife" for them, foregoing their own bloodlines entirely to remain pure.
Just for the sake of devotion to the ones they worship.

It is an intense form of love. One that the like of romance and friendship stands apart from entirely - almost as if they are wholly unrelated beasts.

If we were to dip within the color wheel of love, I'd liken it to manic agape; a selfless love, expecting nothing in return for said love, but one so large that it overwhelms you just to think of the one it's for.
A love in which you would kill to remain by their side - hence why sacrifice for the gods has remained a ritual practice even in the modern day.

Okay, that makes sense.

-Wait, and you feel that way about me??

[Yes Evangeline that's what this whole conversation was about.]

Evangeline. Ol Siaion.
Do I need to remind you again of the horrors that I'd committed against you. And the one that, more recently, I'd committed for you.
And the fact that both came about because I care about you.

These are not the actions held by someone who feels things a normal amount.

[Another pause.]

For what it's worth... I do not know if "love" is the proper word I would use for what I feel.
Such a thing has never been easy for me to feel for others in the first place. Unlike Je-
Chipp. I am quite capable of recognizing my own emotions.
But feeling them is a struggle for me.

Hence why I decided to start with the word "devotion". I am, if nothing else, devoted to you.

Oh.

Well. Whatever you want to call it... I'm honored and touched by your feelings. My heart's big.

[He probably knows where that expression comes from.]

But, um... I don't know how to say this, but I'm not above you? You're my beloved friend - we're equals.

... Your heart's--

- Oh.

[Yeah. No. He knows where she got that. You can practically hear the eye roll.
But he does his best to keep it out of his voice, at least.]

Well... whether you are "above" me or not doesn't matter. My devotion remains, regardless.
Need you be above me for me to be devoted?

It sounded like it, with the gods and worship thing? But if that isn't, then I'm glad.

And, you know. I care about you too. If anyone hurts you, I'll beat them straight to the flower yard.

[Huff.]

I never said you aren't above me. But I wanted to reassure you that my devotion is unrelated.
Because I know you would argue my feelings if I didn't, and I'd rather not have to go through that - we don't need to give me a reason to chicken out of having feelings of some kind in the first place.

It's a horrifying thing, you know. To have them - to feel them. To share them.
My hands are shaking.

[...

His poker face extends to his voice, apparently.]

...I get scared sometimes too, of feeling strongly for people. I understand that much, I think.

But - I think it's worth it, to love and be loved in return. Or be devoted and be devoted to, if you want to call it that instead. -I'll tell you I love you every day of my life, if it'll help.

...

I still fear that someday, you'll change your mind. You'll find some reason to decide otherwise -
And you'll harm me for it.

But I'll choose to believe you until that happens. And once it does... even then, I have no reason to take back my devotion.
Ol Siaion.

[And then, clearing his throat -]

Don't repeat that around His Majesty, by the way. He speaks Enochian.

Oh, I was actually initially considering asking him what it meant instead of asking you. Good thing I didn't?

... I am so, so glad that I caved and explained. I truly did plan to leave it a mystery for you.
The last thing I need is for him to bring it up next time I'm in his office...

[~~especially since the next time he's in lucifer's office he might be blowing him, that'd kinda suck~~]

Would it really be that embarrassing?

He's like a father to me. In this one and only instance, that is not a good thing.
So, yes, it would be incredibly embarrassing.

[...]

Well - I suppose "like a father" isn't exactly apt... but I'm not sure how else I would describe him.
What would you call someone whom cares for you and provides for you like a father might, but that which you wish to be absolutely destroyed by in bed?

[Immediately:]

Daddy.

...

[Hang on, he's gotta put his phone down again.

She's even going to hear the squeak of his chair and the clack of his heels as he gets up and paces his suite a little bit - no more than a minute of that passes, though, before he's back again.

And, with an incredibly heavy sigh:]

...

I can't even argue that. I hate that I can't argue that.
He even gave me a duck that dispenses endless booze -

That is absolutely "daddy" behavior, isn't it?

Pretty much! Sorry you had to find out this way, but at least you've got a hot daddy who can make you literally anything you want?

[Trying so hard not to laugh.]

[ANOTHER heavy sigh, this one rougher as if he's forced it out.]

I suppose there's that. This is only one duck of four, for the record -
The other three are equally ridiculous.

One blows bubbles. Another dispenses affirmations [- which is confirmed via him squeezing it, getting "You are enough" from the duck in a soft tone -] and the third...
Is me. It's just a little duck that looks like me.

He keeps giving these to me. Why does he keep giving these to me?

Ducks are his favorite thing in the world and giving ducks to people is how he shows affection. I've got an eldritch duck of my own.

But four, wow, he really likes you.

He -
H-he... really likes me...

[There's a tone of wonder to his voice, parroting it - but there's clearly an undertone of anxiety, too.
Half because his first, immediate thought is "oh, god, I could NEVER take Lucifer in a fight if it came to that." Of course, he immediately defaults to the belief that he's just somehow infinitely murderable.

... But his second, less immediate thought is -]

D... do you think -
Perhaps he might be... open? To, ah... you know...

[It's not even a crush like it is with Lycaon. He just wants to get railed by the devil, okay.]

I mean, he fucks me, and he's gone to my and Max's orgies before.

...He might worry initially that he's taking advantage of you? Since you live in his hotel and all. But I think if you can impress upon him that you really really really want to fuck, it should go okay.

Right. Right -
I believe I can do that. Easily.

[Evangeline probably believes the same, considering how intense Louis can be when he really, really wants it.
Mr. "Had to be told to stop running to her house".]

I'll... ask him, then. I must admit, now that the possibility's on the table... I've been wondering how to proposition him -
I'd thought that, perhaps, being that I'm a lowly hybrid between demon and angel... maybe I was a bit too below His Highness for something like that?

But if even you think four ducks is a lot...

[Yeah, he's gauging this based on the number of ducks.]

I have no idea why that would matter? I'm a human and we've had some fantastic sex.

[Lucifer isn't the type of person to judge based on species.]

Four ducks is definitely a lot. I don't have four ducks and I've known him much longer than you have.

god just SHOOT HIM why don't you

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