abnormalizes | Seasons: IC Contact/Continuations

Well... yes - you are right about that.
A normal person... they would look back at such actions and feel remorse, wouldn't they?

[His hold on her thighs lightens up a bit, and he starts to rub one of his thumbs in a little circle against her skin.]

... That I feel it at all is a testament to you and your ability to worm your way inside of people, you know.
I can't remember a time where I have felt it this strongly - and for reasons beyond disliking the consequences.

Of which there have been none, mind you; somehow, I am walking away from my crimes completely scot-free, and instead of being happy about such a thing... it feels wrong.

[She feels confident he’s never killed and eaten a friend before, and it’s less that she herself is special.]

…I think dealing with guilt is kind of a consequence. Maybe even a more effective one than the violence other people would inflict on you.

[It certainly helps that he's never had a friend before, too.
Aside from Jean, of course.]

If it is a consequence, then it's an awful one. A proper consequence should have a time limit, something you can look forward to after dealing with sitting in timeout for so long -
I don't foresee this going away anytime soon.

Unless I somehow manage to make you hate me, of course. But that is obviously not happening, either - and, at least at this exact moment in time, I...
Can't say that I want you to.

Not happening. [Gently.] But at least in my experience, guilt fades over time. It won’t hurt this much forever.

... I should hope so.
It feels gross and I don't like it.

[Said with the exact tone you'd expect from a rich brat who probably has an undiagnosed personality disorder, honestly.
He feels the remorse and the guilt, sure, but he has very little actual emotional attachment to them -

They're just there, being gross in his chest when he should be having fun. Nuisances, really.]

Kind of the point. It wouldn’t be an effective way of getting you to not do the thing again if it was a pleasant feeling.

Yes, well, that does not make me hate it less.
It is also not the reason I promised not to do that to you again, mind. Were you a mere acquaintance, there'd be a very strong chance I would do it again the moment you gave me a reason. Whether I felt guilt for the first go 'round or not.

[Pausing, thinking, letting out a thoughtful little hum -]

Well, no, I suppose the chance would still be slim with you... but only because it's clearly had little effect. Why attempt something a second time if the first had no effect?
It would be pointless.

But, no, the guilt is not why I refuse to treat you that way. I simply feel that you deserve better than that.
You did nothing to earn such treatment, and with how you are, there's no way you ever will earn it in the future, either.

Oh - thank you? I appreciate that.

…Like I said, I always figured there was a good chance I’d go that way, so… thank you for wanting better for me.

It is not that I want better for you, but that you deserve better.
Please keep that in mind, because it applies to how others treat you, too. Not just myself.

[He's still rubbing little idle circles in the skin of her thigh, of course. Still seated nice and firm inside of her, too.
Honestly, he can't say he dislikes this. Someone teach him what cockwarming is, because he's pretty down with this --]

... You really do have such a high tolerance for nonsense, though.
I'm well aware of how I sound when I speak, sometimes - most would hear me say the things I've just said and consider me some sort of cartoon villain.

I appreciate this about you, considering I seem to be some sort of uncontrollable villainesque nonsense generator.

[She can't complain! He feels nice.]

Your feelings and perspectives aren't nonsense. Even if they're different from most people's, that doesn't make them nonsense.

Oh, you simply refuse to let me treat myself in the way I deserve to be treated, don't you?
Fine. My feelings may not be "nonsense", but that does not save them from appearing villainesque and garish regardless.

After all, I just told you that even if you managed to deserve it, I wouldn't kill and eat you a second time as it had no effect.
And because it's upset my stomach.

Well. Yeah, that is pretty villain-y, I guess.

[It does make her chuckle, though.]

I guess I've got a high tolerance for villains.

You have a high tolerance for many things you ought not be tolerating at all, but villainy does appear to be one of them, yes.
I have a very strong feeling I am nowhere near the worst person you know, after all.

Despite what I've done to you, personally.

Honestly, good question, who is the worst person I know...

[Hmmmm...]

I'll figure it out later. But it's definitely not you, no.

I would hope not! I try not to make a habit of doing horrible things, after all.

That, and you do seem to enjoy nonhumans quite a bit. I imagine many of the bigger, more monstrous of your partners have likely done things most humans would consider morally bankrupt.
Just due to the fact that they are monsters.

It would be a bit like asking a wolf to behave according to human morals, I feel...

Pretty much exactly. -Purple Mage helped kill the sun once and they're not even that monstrous.

- The sun.

The sun?

[Immediately looking at the ceiling, as if he can see the sun through it - even reaching up to point at it.
The ceiling. To indicate what he's talking about.]

That sun? The literal sun?

Their world's sun, but yes.

Well, alright, but a sun. A literal star.
They "killed" it.

May I ask... why?

They were... trying to end their world? So it could be reborn? It's been a while since we talked about this so I don't remember all the details.

I would certainly think destroying the main star of a galaxy would end the world revolving around it, yes.

...

And yet we are worried about people finding out I ate you? When there have been people, here, that destroyed their own worlds?
Presumably full of the trillions of people within it?

People don't know anyone from that world. They do know me.

... Fair enough. That is very true; the closeness and personal aspect of it certainly would - and should - be enough to make my crimes disgust others.

Not that I plan on saying anything, mind. I, ah... have a hard time seeing the emotional side of things, oftentimes blinded by the logical side of it.
That's all.

You're not wrong. There are people who have done a lot worse than kill one person, logically. Just, feelings.

...Are you feeling any better?

Ah... enough so that I can put whatever's left to the side for the time being, yes.
At any rate, I certainly no longer feel like vomiting nor crying.

[...

Just. Casually admitting he felt like both of those, despite the fact that literally nothing in his voice or body language hinted at either.]

Are you asking because you'd like to start again? I can't say I'd mind it.

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