I don't wanna make you feel bad either. Who you are is good. Even when I wanna hide or feel like I'm gonna explode. I don't wanna make anyone feel like the way they are is wrong or hurting me.
[Small whine, but she doesn't freak out, just buries her face in Evangeline's shoulder.]
It's just... [aa.] I kinda talked to Katsuki-kun at the charity auction, and he was all, if I have a boyfriend then why don't you have anyone when you love everybody so much? So I had to explain all the stuff like how most people only want one person and that really wouldn't be fair, and like how a lot of people think I'm just confused, like Amy-chan's inner thought thing in the last trial was all "Rinku's gonna reject you because if she loves everyone that's the same as only liking you as a friend and not getting it," which is made up, and also how Chipp-san told me to tell him whoever I get serious with so he can scare them and make sure they're not messing with me so I kinda felt bad about that too. That kinda stuff.
I know the party wasn't really gonna help with that, but it made me feel better. Even though Katsuki-kun's right when he was like, don't worry so much, you're lovable too. ...Also I had a bunch of things still on my bingo card and I dunno where I would have done them otherwise but --
Okay, first thing - even if you only wanted to date one person, Chipp would still be protective of you. It's not because he thinks you're confused. Amy is... probably coming from a place of insecurity, and what she thinks says more about her than about you.
[Rinku hugs tightly back. She snuggles, even if her face is burning red.]
You think so? I hope so. I love everybody, and I hope I can make them all happy. Same with how I didn't think I was making you worried or sad, but then what Chipp-san said about how I should talk to you about the embarrassment thing kinda made me think, wait, am I? Should I do something better?
Yeah, I thought so, but also I was a little scared you were gonna hold up my card and go either "look, she doesn't have a bingo yet" or "look how much she did already" aaa.
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I don't wanna make you feel bad either. Who you are is good. Even when I wanna hide or feel like I'm gonna explode. I don't wanna make anyone feel like the way they are is wrong or hurting me.
[She knows how that feels.]
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Uwehhh. ...If I try and work on it too, like try not to get embarrassed, would that help?
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I think so? It wouldn't hurt.
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[Evangeline's party was different. And even then...]
I just kinda. Asked Davis-san to tell me when you'd be gone, and then hid when I heard you came in.
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[Gently.]
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It's just... [aa.] I kinda talked to Katsuki-kun at the charity auction, and he was all, if I have a boyfriend then why don't you have anyone when you love everybody so much? So I had to explain all the stuff like how most people only want one person and that really wouldn't be fair, and like how a lot of people think I'm just confused, like Amy-chan's inner thought thing in the last trial was all "Rinku's gonna reject you because if she loves everyone that's the same as only liking you as a friend and not getting it," which is made up, and also how Chipp-san told me to tell him whoever I get serious with so he can scare them and make sure they're not messing with me so I kinda felt bad about that too. That kinda stuff.
I know the party wasn't really gonna help with that, but it made me feel better. Even though Katsuki-kun's right when he was like, don't worry so much, you're lovable too. ...Also I had a bunch of things still on my bingo card and I dunno where I would have done them otherwise but --
[Ah, there's the squeak.]
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[Squeeze.]
You're definitely lovable, he's right about that.
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You think so? I hope so. I love everybody, and I hope I can make them all happy. Same with how I didn't think I was making you worried or sad, but then what Chipp-san said about how I should talk to you about the embarrassment thing kinda made me think, wait, am I? Should I do something better?
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Sorry, Neechan. No wonder he was telling me to talk to you about this.
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[It's not that far off, all things considered.]
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[She pulls back enough to shuffle and lean against Evangeline's side.]
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It does bother me a little, but I wouldn't say you're causing trouble. I just need to be more conscientious.
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I guess I embarrass you too. Like when I thought you saying I should make you a song meant I should perform it.
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Then I'll write a better song. One that isn't gonna make you wanna go into hiding or explode or something.
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