Evangeline (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
abnormalizes) wrote2023-03-05 08:19 pm
abnormalizes) wrote2023-03-05 08:19 pm
Seasons: IC Contact/Continuations
This is Evangeline! Sorry, I'm a little busy right now, but leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can!
[The use of the past tense doesn't escape her notice. Evangeline gently wraps her arms around Shadow to hug him close.]
I bet! But ducks and workshops later, cuddling now.
[He doesn't resist the hug.]
Those were dreams that were never accomplished. The Guardian Units of Nations, G.U.N., thought I was a threat or were displeased with the doctor's results. They wanted me as a weapon. They attacked the colony. Maria died trying to save me. She jettisoned me into space. But G.U.N. managed to get ahold of me regardless of her sacrifice.
My creator was forced to continue his work on me as a weapon. Losing Maria...it destroyed us both. So he altered my memories. Set me to become his tool of revenge. To destroy the world he once sought to protect and save. And I nearly succeeded.
Sonic stopped me. Sonic helped me remember my promise to Maria. To protect the world. Our world. Our home. A world that doesn't exist anymore. Because I failed. Our world is a ghost of its former self now. And I'm here. Tasked to protect this world now.
Those were dreams that were never accomplished. The Guardian Units of Nations, G.U.N., thought I was a threat or were displeased with the doctor's results. They wanted me as a weapon. They attacked the colony. Maria died trying to save me. She jettisoned me into space. But G.U.N. managed to get ahold of me regardless of her sacrifice.
My creator was forced to continue his work on me as a weapon. Losing Maria...it destroyed us both. So he altered my memories. Set me to become his tool of revenge. To destroy the world he once sought to protect and save. And I nearly succeeded.
Sonic stopped me. Sonic helped me remember my promise to Maria. To protect the world. Our world. Our home. A world that doesn't exist anymore. Because I failed. Our world is a ghost of its former self now. And I'm here. Tasked to protect this world now.
Let no one say you don't have your priorities in order. [And snuggle he does. He even wraps three wings around them.]
I'm so sorry, Shadow.
[She doesn't have any better comfort to give him. Losing someone that important - not being able to protect someone that important, blaming yourself for them dying - there's no words she could give to make that easier.
She just holds him tighter instead.]
[She doesn't have any better comfort to give him. Losing someone that important - not being able to protect someone that important, blaming yourself for them dying - there's no words she could give to make that easier.
She just holds him tighter instead.]
[He doesn't pull away. He doesn't cry or break down. He stays quiet for a long moment.]
I am slow to trust. Gerald put his trust in G.U.N. and they brought ruin. I want to trust. I want to trust you and Sonic. I want to show Sonic I want to trust him.
I don't know how.
I am slow to trust. Gerald put his trust in G.U.N. and they brought ruin. I want to trust. I want to trust you and Sonic. I want to show Sonic I want to trust him.
I don't know how.
Ohhh, they're soft! [Happily rubbing her cheek against the wings. This is pure bliss.]
Trust is hard. For people like us, especially. -I want to trust people too, but I don't know how to shut off that part of my brain that's always preparing to be hurt.
[He looks at Evangeline.]
I know part of it is from your employer. Do you want to talk about it? You listened for me. I will listen for you.
I know part of it is from your employer. Do you want to talk about it? You listened for me. I will listen for you.
...I grew up in the Backstreets. The poor parts of the City, where government presence is minimal and gangs battle for control of each area. Every day you had a chance of being killed for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, and that was just how it was. You could never let your guard down even for a second.
When I started work at L Corp, I saw coworkers die every day, because it was cheaper for the company to replace them than to try to make things safer for its employees. I can't count how many times I've had to step over corpses while working. You don't get a chance to mourn, and you don't get to be at less than a hundred percent at your best or you risk being the next one to be killed.
I don't know how to convince myself that I'm safe, and I'm not going to be killed if I let my guard down just a little.
When I started work at L Corp, I saw coworkers die every day, because it was cheaper for the company to replace them than to try to make things safer for its employees. I can't count how many times I've had to step over corpses while working. You don't get a chance to mourn, and you don't get to be at less than a hundred percent at your best or you risk being the next one to be killed.
I don't know how to convince myself that I'm safe, and I'm not going to be killed if I let my guard down just a little.
I'm sorry. [He isn't sure what else to say. Like with her before.]
Feeling safe would be hard for you. I understand how trust is also hard for you. For both of us.
Feeling safe would be hard for you. I understand how trust is also hard for you. For both of us.
I want to trust. I want to trust you. I don't have a single reason to believe you'd ever hurt me.
[She knows why it's so difficult, but why does it have to be so difficult?]
[She knows why it's so difficult, but why does it have to be so difficult?]
You can believe it in your mind but it is hard to know with complete certainty. Perhaps I could hurt you one day. Perhaps you could hurt me.
Or we can be hurt at the loss of one another.
Pain is a part of life. One we cannot avoid.
Or we can be hurt at the loss of one another.
Pain is a part of life. One we cannot avoid.
...If I lost you... It'd hurt badly.
But - I guess, here - it's okay to be hurt. Because you don't always have to be at your best to survive.
But - I guess, here - it's okay to be hurt. Because you don't always have to be at your best to survive.
I think you're right. Here we can risk the pain. Risk the hurt. Because we can heal. This world will let us have that time.
Yeah. I'd never be able to trust like that at home.
If - if you do figure out that way of giving someone control. Could you let me know?
If - if you do figure out that way of giving someone control. Could you let me know?
I will. I will tell you.
[Shadow nods.] And if you find it first, you can tell me.
[Shadow nods.] And if you find it first, you can tell me.
I will. We can try it ourselves, see if it helps or not before you bring it up to Sonic.
Thank you. I just...I don't know what I'm doing and I hate this. I hate not knowing what I'm doing.
Me too! It sucks! Why can't these things just have simple instructions we could follow or something?
I wish there were. But emotions seem to have never been figured out. In all the years humans and other creatures have existed and studied one another.
It's irritating.
It's irritating.
Why do people have to be so complicated.
[Sighs and smooshes her face into the top of his head. Fluffy. Comforting.]
[Sighs and smooshes her face into the top of his head. Fluffy. Comforting.]
I don't know. They just are.
[He sighs and leans back on the couch.]
You can put your face in my chest fur if that will help more.
[He sighs and leans back on the couch.]
You can put your face in my chest fur if that will help more.
Thank you, that sounds perfect.
[Face immediately smooshed in chest instead.]
[Face immediately smooshed in chest instead.]
[Shadow pets her head and just lets her smoosh her face in his chest.]
I have a feeling this will happen to me more in the future, between you and Sonic.
I have a feeling this will happen to me more in the future, between you and Sonic.
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