Thank you. But...what if Lilith arrives? What if Charlie arrives? Will she be okay with it? Do I not go through with it if she isn't? What if she is? Will she be there?

Will I mess this up? Again?!

And it's such a big step and am I going too fast? I mean, two years is uh slow for ME but is it slow for others? A-And we basically become demon mates right away but this feels different and it is different for me but I want it.

But should I let myself have it? Do I deserve it?