In life, I was a miserable little wretch who had no qualms with harming even those that I love if I thought there was a way for us to gain things from it. I spent the majority of my life battered and bruised, half of my time spent in hospitals - unrelated to the beatings, purely due to illness - and I had that energy pent up inside of me at all times, willing to point and unleash it at others if I felt the whim.
[A pause, thinking on this more...]
... Frankly, I believe that aside from my death, the only other thing that would have had a net positive effect on who I was would be the death of my parents. Which, as you can guess, wasn't happening any time soon.
Either way, someone had to die. Or I would have remained that way for the rest of my miserable life.
cw: just... casual mention of abuse...
In life, I was a miserable little wretch who had no qualms with harming even those that I love if I thought there was a way for us to gain things from it.
I spent the majority of my life battered and bruised, half of my time spent in hospitals - unrelated to the beatings, purely due to illness - and I had that energy pent up inside of me at all times, willing to point and unleash it at others if I felt the whim.
[A pause, thinking on this more...]
... Frankly, I believe that aside from my death, the only other thing that would have had a net positive effect on who I was would be the death of my parents.
Which, as you can guess, wasn't happening any time soon.
Either way, someone had to die. Or I would have remained that way for the rest of my miserable life.