[he relaxes a bit when Evangeline scritches his ears, mentally kicking himself for letting this stuff discourage him. Even he can't be great at everything. They're being cool about it, he's not letting anybody down, he really needs to chill out.

Big sigh, time to recalibrate.]

I'm fine, promise. I think I'm just getting in my own head too much, like I expect a certain level of performance from myself? But I have to actually work my way to the top with this one. Anyway, I'm good to keep going.

[that said, he finally turns to Shadow and takes note of all the weird shit he's dug out. The cockring he understands and fully expects Shadow to help him put on, the strap he can make some wild guesses about, but the collars and chain?? Shadow plz.]

If we put those goofy things on, Eva has my full permission to swing us around like a pair of hedgehog-chucks.